About HH

Tonight, I feel like going down into memory lane. I'd like to say that most of the time I am spontaneous in certain aspects in life. I still remember one of my few crushes I had back in 2000 (the same year I met Popo) but I have to clarify here I don't even know him in person because I just saw him on TV. Hehe.

This guy appeared on TV one day (to be precise the show was RSB). His name is Hazuan. My eyes were glued on him the first time I saw him in the "iklan" and it was not the real air time yet at that point in time. He's a Malaysian tennis player studying in States (if I'm not mistaken he was in Kentucky Uni and represents Malaysia and his university for every so called big matches there). His stories appeared few times in local newspapers and I even did all the paper cuttings and put it in a special file. How stupid I was when it comes to instant crushes.

What else did I do? I even recorded his appearance on RSB, waited everyday right in front of the TV for the "iklan" to air just to watch him over and over again till the day the episode actually aired, I even sent a letter to him by using his university address just to prove that I was his biggest fan. Hehe. Oh ya, I was a huge tennis fan last time plus I was my school's rep for tennis during my high school days and that explains why I was really into this HH guy. He was not really good looking, he got this kuyu eyes which makes him cute and what I like the most was he has this "slanga" when he speaks in BM (yabba dabba doo Tini may call it).

I found him in Friendster years back but his account was not even active and I'm sure he didn't even get the letter I sent him in 2000. Stupid me. That letter was also sent in hoping that I will get a reply from him and be considered as my belated birthday gift! How pathetic I was! Hehe and yet I'm not ashamed of what I did as I consider it as a beautiful memories that I "had" with him. Since name was Hazuan and mine is Nazuha (gedik!), therefore I love love his name and mine. Har har har.

I have few other crushes but I prefer them to be remained "silent". Big big one but I won't tell because most of my friends would know who he is and it is case sensitive. lol.

Till then. Last post before I go to Perth for Brit Brit ! Bye my darling friends. Don't miss moi (especially Najwa!). Britney, just please don't cancel your show and please be on time Britney, if not I'll have a swollen feet just waiting for hours for you to come out like what Sean Paul did!. If possible, I'll take few vids of her and of course lots of still photos (but my camera's zoom won't go that FAR, get what I mean?) Hehe.

Nitey niteeeeeee

Today is a good day

i love this expression of mine (tho it's obviously an act) and this is how i look like whenever i misses him, mr. socialite / mr. m.i.a. i know i should have moved on long time ago but it's the kind of feeling that it's not easy to just throw off. to those who know what i'm going through, you may judge but i truly believe that love is blind. the fact that he has almost everything that i seek in a guy of my dream makes me even more crushed.

If only I can reveal few names.

Am I right on this girls????

Let's start with - A man KNOWS he's behaving badly when he ignores you.

He knows it.

And the thing he expects is for YOU to be ANGRY.

And if you PRETEND you're NOT angry even when you are, and instead GO TO being understanding and nice and sweet - even though you feel upset and frustrated and sad, then he'll get angry at YOU!

Sounds familiar?

But when you just Turn Away - not because you're angry (even if you are) but because you JUST DON'T LIKE FEELING ALONE AT A PARTY WHEN YOU'RE WITH HIM, AND YOU JUST DON'T LIKE HAVING TO CHASE HIM DOWN IN ORDER TO BE WITH HIM, everything will change for you.

Your man will start chasing YOU down.

You won't be standing there presenting a sweet, understanding, loving, long-suffering-woman face - or even a PREDICTABLE "angry" face.

You'll just be YOURSELF, feeling whatever you're feeling, and choosing the good-feeling feelings over the yucky-feeling ones as they all come up.

And what you'll most likely be feeling toward HIM is...NOT MUCH!

And there's hardly any feeling more POWERFUL for any woman than that.

All of a sudden - he's not in control of you.

YOU'RE in control of you.

Feels great.

And then, you'll get to decide if you really WANT this man.

Because when we're chasing a man down, we can't even tell if we like him or not.

We just feel pushed forward from our insides because we're on some old, useless track of having to hunt down a worthwhile man.

Now you know it works completely the opposite.

When you TURN AWAY, that's when he'll show up.

And it's not hard girls. TRY it. Hehe

Off to Perfffff

for Britney's concert and family holiday :)

sadly, I only brought few hundres of Aussie D (honestly totally broke) and wishing that Daddy will supply more so that I can buy belated birthday presents for my lovelies (Far, Reebok, Tinie & newborn babies of my friends'). InsyaAllah, if not I'll just buy later in homeland.

i'm so excited bout E's and Nadira's wedding next year so that I can tempah baju. I love weddings(when is mine? hehe). thanks Ya for the invitation.

yesterday my hp line been barred and don't feel like paying the bills since i need to use the money in Perth, therefore i decided that i'll just switch off my hp when i'm there (no gangguan pls). contact me through FB (as if time permits. duhh)

it's the FIRST family holiday for us since the Bro in Law joined the family and especially me shayang Bot Bot (umur 6 bulan dah gi oversea. so lucky.)

can't wait. hope everything goes well. needs to start packing. bye.

Happy Birthday

Recently - a birthday of a very dear friend.

I wanted to wish her in a very very mushy way but I couldn't throw it out through sms. Infact, I did mention that I'll let her know soon why I cherished her as a friend.

Here goes Azmanwanaidil (you know who you are) !

Among things that you do for our friendship, there's one that may seem nothing to anyone else but something to moi. "I love your confidence in buying me clothes/garments although you know that there's not much sizes for a chubby girl like me out there and yes, they ALWAYS fits me well". Especially the pink green boxer from London and a simple tshirt from Bali. :P

Wait till I lose anor 20 kgs, I'm sure you'll buy me more :P

Simple isn't it? But I really love you for that when others are not that BERANI :)

Love you birthday girl.

p/s : I know this is a silly post but who cares. Haha.

what would you do if you miss someone so badly?

me? sit still and feels sad.

:(

our song.

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